Now that the sun is shining on a regular bases, I have noticed how dirty windows really are. It must be a sign of old age, because I never use to care about my windows, and now their dirtiness is driving me crazy. I am turning into my mother. My windows is the first thing she complains about when she comes over.
Let's be honest, 3 kids, a dog, a husband, a babysiting gig of 10 hours a week, a waitress job of 10 hours a week, two executive boards, and life in general just get in the way. The free time I have I hardly want to clean windows, but they are so dirty that I can barely see my neighbors house this morning. Oh how I wish I would win the lottery. I would pay to have the house spring cleaned and I would hire a window washer to make my view picture perfect.....
About 2 weeks ago, the PTO that I am president of had its yearly Zaar. We have been planning and organizing this event since Oct of 2009. The final month was pure madness. The man hours I put into this is mind blowing. Raffles, Silent Auctions, Dinner for 450 people, Games, Volunteers, Cakes, Tickets, Prizes.....the list goes on and on. At the end of the day $23,000 was raised in about 4 hours for the school. That number alone makes it a huge success, but let me tell you, the behind the scenes drama is down right ridiculous. Next years board elections are held in May and the nomination process in April. This is probably one of the most thankless jobs I have ever done. I am ready to walk away...it has been a long uphill battle since last June. When I took over as president, I walked into a big mess of turmoil and uproar. I am a big girl with thick skin and a strong back bone, but enough is enough. A lot of good changes have been made, and the teachers are so pleased with the direction that the PTO is heading, but I just don't think I have any fight left in me for the rest of the board. When you sign up for a committee or run for a board position you have to put the work in, and to many of the current people are in it for their name only. I am one person and put more heart and soul then the work of 3 people. These people who are in it for name only, need to leave, so those of us who work hard can do just that, work hard. I am prepared to walk, volunteering shouldn't cause this must stress and anger. The hardest part for me, is knowing what will happen when I walk away. This is my childrens' school and they need more people like me, but at what cost is it worth it? If I walk, it will survive, but slowly decline, is this fair to my children? Is it fair to the 3 others who agree with me? Is it fair to let the loud, bullies continue to bully? Someone needs to fight the fight, I just know if I have any fight left in me......
Maybe spring break and a trip to the sunny south will help clear my brain and make the choice more clear. I return home on the 12th and the 14th is when I have to have a decision about my intentions for next year. Perhaps I should take my frustrations out on the windows????
Spring has sprung.......
